We are leaving to finally meet our Ali in a matter of days and I am so excited and just can’t wait to finally see her darling face in person, and yet my heart is breaking. My mother’s heart sees a 12 year old little girl, who in order to gain a family, has to give up everything and everyone she has ever known. The depth of her grief I will never know, and yet I feel some of it. I pray we will somehow be the hands and feet of Jesus to her during this process – and to that she will be drawn. The lyrics to this song have become my prayer for her and for my own troubled heart – that God would be the healer of all her hurt inside as his song of Mercy covers her.

(lyrics to “I Will Lift My Eyes” by Bebo Norman)

God My God, I cry out

your beloved needs you now

God be near, calm my fear

and take my doubt

your kindness is what pulls me up,

your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes

to the maker, of the mountains

I can’t climb

I will lift my eyes

to calmer, of the oceans

raging wild

I will lift my eyes

to the healer, of the hurt

I hold inside

I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to you

God my God let mercy sing

her melody over me

God right here all I bring is all of me

Your kindness is what pulls me up,

your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes

to the maker, of the mountains

I can’t climb

I will lift my eyes

to calmer, of the oceans

raging wild

I will lift my eyes

to the healer, of the hurt

I hold inside

cause you are

and you were

and you will be forever

The lover I need to save me

Cause you fashioned the earth

and Hold it together

God so hold me now

I will lift my eyes

to the maker, of the mountains

I can’t climb

I will lift my eyes

to calmer, of the oceans

raging wild

I will lift my eyes

to the healer, of the hurt

I hold inside

God My God, I cry out

your beloved needs you now